, MAY 29, 2015
Fear fear Fear thine is the name of LEF. people shiver and tremble and kneel in front of the leaders, In the name of obedience the will of man is killed and brutally murdered, and chopped into pieces, and leave them as zombies to work and toil in BG. The rules and regulations are for the working class, if you want to understand what I am saying read ANIMAL FARM of Goerge Orwell , do nor miss this book, if you miss to read that, you are at loss.. lol
I must write about the May Retreats, I started to go to these May Retreats from 1974 on wards, till 2005 . These retreats were for those who have committed their lives to the Lord and they were meant for the growth of spiritual life with a taste of poverty to sustain ourselves in real world when we would expose to such poverty in our lives. It was to understand the poor amongst us. This was the spirit behind in my longing to go there every year after year. we had minimum food and lodging facilities and lot of word of God and testimonies, it was rich spiritual atmosphere.. we were thrilled to get know the God’s loving people in one place for ten days, we had plenty of time to sit alone and pray under the green trees.
The food was of a table spoon of Upma and black water coffee with jaggary, and lunch coarse rice and dal and severing most of the days we were on fasting and praying, the rooms were thatched sheds to keep our belongings, so with primitive facilities we had for ten days, me and my family were well equipped with enough training to face any sort of life in real world. Every one rich or poor we lived and shared the life just the same there atleast for just 10 days.
But later I saw the place was changed from the first taste of life there, there were differentiation among the comers, with regard to boarding and lodging. no time to pray… all was like a maya bazaar.
so I stopped to go to witness the mimicry of evangelists and many dramas of evil minded.
Later when BG was purchased the king of the place ordered all people to come serve and labour there without pay. All evangelists were expected to work there for a few months, in hot sun. no food no rest,
Even the diabetics were expected to work from morning to evening, and that caused heart attacks to some of them after they returned, this was exactly what happened in our home to loose the head of the family.
Then why were we going in there which was started with good intentions but later ruined the very nature of the retreat?
It is God who called us to work for Him, it is His love that makes us to work for Him, but we were brainwashed completely that we had to work only in LEF but no where else. The bondage was such that we were tied by the satan to the man made rules of LEF. we were blind, we were in fancy utopia of being used by God only in LEF; We dared not to leave LEF never we dared to entertain such thoughts in our lives. which were considered as grave sin.
So if were not in the good looks of the HQ we were not allowed to go to May retreat, Once my dad came to retreat, on my request, I wanted him to see and listen to the word of God, but one famous evangelist from found my dad in the retreat, and complained to HQ ladies, they called me and scolded me left and right and told me to go away from the retreat, I was crying in the heart, I brought my dad with the permission of jacobs, with a desire to spend time in prayer with him where there were no other distractions, actually my dad would never come to any place he was an officer, and we used to obey him all the time, this time he obeyed me and God to set right his life. When this thing happened, strangely I was low in spirit but did not get any anger, on the other hand I thought we were not deserved to be in this ‘holy place’—never a thought aroused in me to retort back, so we shifted to some friends house which was too far and I brought my dad every day to the retreat.
It was heart wrenching experience, humiliated and weeping in the souls.
They used to give punishment by stopping people to come to retreat, one day I was there when the Lady of the HQ was asking her bosom friend, “Hey…( her name) what type of punishment we will give to this man? I looked at the man, he was poor evangelist from one of the places in Andhrapradesh…. and that wicked lady giggled and said, ” what else akka, its simple, we will not allow this man to come to retreat” Both were giggling to their hearts’ content and the man was like a leaf in the storm shivering. It means if he is not allowed to retreat means, his congregation will come to know of this, and they will look down at him and he will not have chance to proceed with his service to the Lord in his center, if the LEF banner is not there he would not be considered as an evangelist, all his sheep will leave him… this was the cunning plot of these HQ women.
I too was shivered at that moment, seeing me there, the Leader barked at me,
” Why you are here Leela? go and stand in distance..” Tears were welling up in my eyes, never these two women would allow me to live my life.She was the one asked me to come to esquire certain things, and now asking me and yelling at me!!!
But strangely enough I did not entertain one negative thought against them but meekly stepped aside. We knew how these people are manipulating the people in LEF, they are partial and most wicked minded to oppress the whole congregation. They never allowed me to be near them, though I loved them so much just because they were the leaders of HQ.
Gone those days of useless futile dusty memories.
Once the HQ lady was barking at Jacobs, in the retreat, it was the last one they attended, she was yelling at them,” How dare you come to the retreat ,you did not pray for the retreat, nor you announced in the church to pray for the retreat. How can u come to this place,”
He was professor, highly educated, but he and his wife were standing there while she was seated on a high chair while she was yelling at them. I saw it with my own eyes, and heard it.There is a way how to talk to others, and how to confront others, no one is their slave!!
But strangely enough we were brainwashed not to entertain any negative thought … like the animals in the Animal Farm George Orwell allegory.
Some how I was never in their good looks, though I look like I was associating with these people very much. They never share anything with me, they never call me or talk to me freely. May be because I was listening to them very obediently , and nod my head for everything they told me, but I used to attach a tag saying, “I too will pray, and will find out the will of God in this regard”
This saved my life from much disaster which was faced by many innocent souls in LEF.
But in this case, because of my father my eyes were blinded because we both , me and my husband were in the crux of LEF in charge evangelists, and we could not go our own way lest we will be teared into pieces and even in Christ is victor our names will be published saying we were disobedient to them.
Fear, Fear, only fear.. there was no place for love.
Here in LEF every body call the leader of LEF as PROPHET; equalizing him to the prophets of Old Testament. If we oppose him or thought negatively in our minds, we will be ruined, this was an unwritten rule amongst us. Of course the leader never said that he was the prophet, but people attributed this to his personality, and almost worship him.
I do not know how it emerged, but still it is there and my relatives say so.. with a sheepish grin on their faces. I look at them.. with pain in my eyes and rebuke them.. therefore they never visit me or help me in my problems. Every one has had this fear, so we purposefully closed our eyes, and ears, and mouth, and kept quiet. He should be the only one mouth speaker in LEF, even his mother was not allowed to give TV speaches or his kith and kin, The Christ is victor magazine gives the name his only and none others, they ‘select” from other preachers and write anonymously…. why they do so? if people read the names they too listen to those messages or read those messages and leave LEF?? These people work as HOLY SPIRIT; what i mean , all the work that has to be done by Holy Spirit will be done by the crew of LEF preachers. –No body should write own songs, or sing own songs or prepare own cassettes or cds they should not write any articles or books, If they do so, they will be burnt under the wrath of the head, that is the Prophet.
If they do it, they will be excommunicated. or ruthlessly murdered by the words on the pulpit of Stuvartpuram or Revival meetings or in May retreat .
Now coming to Tithes of the members of LEF; by the by there is no membership or recognition of any member in this group. These people look like they do not ask money on the pulpit. Once upon a time they were really clean .. but as the days go by, they started to boast on the pulpit that they do not ask for money, that they do not have bank accounts, and they do not touch even one rupee note, no purse with them etc etc.. But they give long speeches about the giving of tithes , and that these should be given only in the church they attend that is LEF; as it is true church.
I am docile one , i did not understand this till recently, i knew that they were speaking superlatives of their money dealings, because I am the witness of their greed directly. but did not understand how it can be possible to live without a bank account.
Recently my friend Leena told me the secret behind these words. in her own words, the story goes like this” Akka, I have gone to the shopping along with my colleagues, I purchased some and used my credit card to pay them. But this friend of mine paid by cash, she bought diamonds and lot of gold. I said why you carry money like that, better u have ATM card, for that she laughed and said, ‘Leena I do not have money in the bank or do I have credit cards, ” I was shocked and I asked her, ” What , what are you saying Leena?” She laughed loudly, and said Poor akka , you are innocent, see these people do not keep money in the banks, because most of the money they have is black money, they do not pay tax , if they keep it in the bank they have to pay tax , you see, so they carry money in their inside pockets of their dresses… hahah”
Then my dull head started to work out. So these preachers speak that they do not have bank account means they have black money, recently one lady, preacher’s wife on the stage said this,” I do not have bank account” she is working woman and spends lavishly on flowers to decorate her hair and spend money on costly sarees, and says no account… wah.. poor ignorant people and dumb people and stupid people like me believe them.
When this leader was telling us that he prepares his own coffee in usa , we opened out mouths and looked at him sympathetically… because we could not imagine the prophet boiling the coffee… and when he told us that he could not lift his suitcases in the airport so he rolls them on the ground, we felt pity, and I thought if only I am a man I would have worked as a servant to this prophet to lift his suitcases… haha not knowing any one in the airport when the sutuit case is too haveay we have to roll it on the ground.. its not a big deal at all, because the coolies are not available in airports.; when he told us only his wife had to take him in car, we were all in tears.. not knowing in america all women drive and they were the ones who do all the work in home do shopping and take care of children and it is shared by the couple as and when it is needed, his wife used to tell us, ” see the ground on usa is quivering, it may fall apart any time, there is no safety for you or for your family, ‘ do not come to usa, she was giving the preaching, and I was the most stupid one to translate this stupid message in stuvartpuram. in 2000. But still they are there, thought the ground is opening its mouth.
Dear christain folks do not be cheated by all this sort of nonsense. There are so many tricks to cheat you. ((continued in next episode.)
Andrew Immanuel I didn’t realise murdering from the pulpit was common.to JD. He did that to me and his daughter did that using FB.
Thanks for explaining why some don’t have bank accounts! BTW, JD always said I didn’t take a penny from LEF. He was careful not to say rupee!May 31 at 6:38am · Unlike · 2Well said, Aunty. Your reference to May retreat as Mayabazar is quite apt. In t
Of course either jubilee garu or whoever they were made to play the tune of hq.
All of us were puppets.
Some of us like jubilees escaped this maya in right time. But like them or me all of us were prone to do certain things which we never intended to those. Like these acts of oppression on poor souls like my dad in the beginning of his repentance.
I like ur direct and transperancy of speaking all ways rather sneaking back
Leelavathi Malaka Wait for the next episodes… how my dad and my family were illtreated… without any reason. U will be in tears bec i wrote those lines in tears flowing unceasingly… though my dad my dear died in 1992 still the wound is fresh bec i treated him worse than jubilee garu or HQ…
hat Maya bazar, some are rule makers who hardly show their actual colors as the people who are commissioned to implement the rules are often seen as villains in LEF. Your reference to the evangelist from Hyd complaining set me thinking. It is unbelievable how LEF sets stage for two unrelated people to become bitter enemies even though neither one of them has anything against the other. I can imagine poor Jubilee uncle trying to do the “Gurkha” job he was assigned to do and here you are may be after 30-40 years still being hurt about it. While in that Maya bazaar, we never realized who was the hero and who was the villain. I personally sometimes wish that someone gives me a list of all the wrongs I may have done to people while thinking that I was carrying out the “Godly work” commissioned by these LEF Demi Gods. People who at any point in their lives were in LEF can see the “Maya” in LEF only after coming out of it. I guess God needs to show double the grace to LEF people- first grace to save them from sin and the second grace to save them from LEF…