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I am good , hale and healthy for two days, but suffer from some ailment the other day, but each time i feel that the end is near by and i would not recover soon, and it would lead to some horrible disease, People on the whole think that i am good in health, and acitve and energetic, and no body believe that i am suffering with one or the other ailment in the body.
But when i am ill healthy, what i do is a routine, I swallow some tablet, and lie down quietly on my coach, i do not prefer to share mya gony of the body to any one , because there is none so close to listen to me, there wont be any one to take caare of me, or give a glass of water, or say an encouraging word, or touch me warmly on my forehead, or just smile at me and say that they are there to look after me. i just close my eyes and pretend that i was sleeping all the time till i recover, wondering this would not end and I may end up in the bed like that only and breath my last.
Yet times i feel i have finished everything that i have to do, and i am at the end of my days, and i should not have any desires to enjoy life, the very next day i am enthusiastic and buy this and that for the kitchen and for my self, to make life comfortable, even while buying i feel that life is too short to enjoy now, and again i comfort myself in the days i should enjoy life i could not, atleast now i should have these little amenities, and i should not forgo, again i think how many more days left for me to do so, Life seems very confusing at times Is this only for me or to every one at this age? prior to retirement? its really a confusing stage, i wish i could come out of it soon. and have a stable life as in the days when i got the job in the begining.

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LeelaMalaka

Hello All! I am a retired Lecturer, Former Air Hostesses, and a writer. I love to share MY STORIES, WITH MY GOD.

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