TRAINING FOR HIS MINISTRY
Training for His Ministry
“For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places” Ephe 6:12
Yes there were certain things in our lives, which we do not like to recollect, or to share with others, things we feel ashamed of ourselves, and feel that those incidents should never happen in our lives. Those are the certain things, we feel how foolishly we had behaved, and terribly we brought shame to ourselves and to our beloved ones, knowingly or unknowingly. We wish we could go back into our yesteryears, and rewrite those lines of our lives in a better way if possible. But we know once life is past, there is no use of lamentation about it, but surely I assure you that God could redesign it in a beautiful patterned dress and make us to wear it and show us to others proudly saying, “hey here is my dear child, look what I did with her/his torn up dress, I embroider it with colourful threads and with my skilful fingers, and I made it the most beautiful dress which you ever could see, see how beautiful and awesome she/he is!!”
I know many thoughts are running in your minds, especially about the Potter and the clay in Jeremiah,18:1-12
“ The vessel the potter made of the clay was marred in the hand of the potter; so he made it into the another vessel, as it seem good to the potter to make” ‘The clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand…..can I not do with you as this potter? We are in the hands of God, the great Potter, We are only clay in His hands, He is the one who is making us, the clay is in His hands, and it is marred out His hands, He was the author and creator of our story….. He does as He likes. Beautiful, comfortable thought to know this.
I still remember one more thing, when Adam and Eve were ashamed of their nakedness, they tried to cover up themselves with the leaves, and hide from God , They were with Him, evening cool of the day, they were talking with Him, enjoying His presence, but wanted to experiment their own will above His will and found themselves NAKED, FEARFUL. But when God found them He gave better clothes for them , and covered them with the skin of the animals, see how loving and concerned our God is about our lives. Gen 3:21–The Lord God made garments of skin for Adam and his wife and clothed them.
Do we have such a heart of God, to seek the ones who feel ashamed of themselves, and help them to be in the design of God?
Yes it happened in my life. I was the one put to shame and trials of life. It was not my life. It was the life in His hands, I was the one put to humiliation, but God saw the end of it. I could see only the past of it. and the process of it. But God saw the end product of it. He could make it into His own pattern of the vessel as long as the clay is willing to stay in His hands. but can the clay have freedom to go away from the potter’s hand. No it won’t and it can’t.. we cannot ask Him why it happened, why it was marred, why He wanted to make it into another vessel. Yes Thou art the Potter, I am the clay. Have Thine own way Lord, have Thine own way.
There was a great disaster in our family, one of our family members suffered from bipolar disorder and had an extreme psychotic break. The manic episode led to a lot of suffering in our family. For two months I consulted the men of God praying and fasting and leading the rest of the family members to repent and seek the salvation of Jesus Chris. Those were the days I was humiliated ,insulted, by the wicked viles of the devil. We all were in dismay, I could not bear to see her suffering in the hands of the doctors by getting electric shocks, I took her to a Man of God with the help of another evangelist who knew how to deal with the evil spirits. I was an amateur, did not know this section of ministry, I was young, 23 years old, innocent, and naïve. We fasted in the man of God tabernacle, for one month, prayed for the person, and got victory over the powers of darkness. I took upon her shame as of mine, I was humiliated, felt naked in His presence.
When such a BIG god is mine how can anything such shameful happen to my family? I must get victory over every evil sin in our family. I did not run after the worldly wisdom but sought the help of Godly men, in His Tabernacle. Still it was a great black mark in our family which I took personally. When my family members shun the forgiveness of the Lord I wept on behalf of them, I cried out in His presence, they are my blood related I need the Blood of the Lamb to cleanse us all. Finally this particular disaster brought salvation to the rest of the family members. Seeing the mighty hand of God in delivering this manic outbursts in the life of this particular family member, my obstinate father and mother yielded to the Lord. The mighty power in His name, Jesus Christ delivered the person who was possessed by the evil one. This had been exhibited right in front of our eyes. The evil spirits ran away from the person just by uttering the name of the Lord Jesus by the man of God.
I saw men of God reciting the verse from Matt 10:1 “Jesus called his 12 disciples and gave them authority to drive out impure spirits and heal every disease and sickness.” I too was praying, claiming this promise whenever I have been encountering these strange spirits. Before casting out the evil spirit they used to read this verse loudly and call and tell the person , ‘do they know that God has given authority over all the principalities of the devil and Jesus drove all evil spirits into the pit?’ The possessed person shudders with fear and trembles by hearing these verses. I was the witness, I learned from those great men of God, Br.Devasahayam and Br Timothy and Br. Yesudas of Stuvartpuram , they were my mentors, my supporters, they were with me to fast and pray and cast off the many evil spirits which possessed that person. I had Dasara holidays, I spent all the money I had saved and for the person to recover, for journey , for good food , for medicine and for our stay etc.
The result of that event was, I saw the power of the name of Jesus Christ and His blood over the powers of the darkness in close quarters, I was right there to witness and see the victory in the name of Jesus.
The person was healed, the close relatives were repented and got saved and baptized later. I got first hand knowledge and training in this unknown field of the ministry. Because I loved my family very much, and I was the part of the battle with the Evil one, I learned and trained to attack the Devil with the word of God. While I saw that girl and family was utterly beaten by the evil one, I stood with the Lord, and claimed His promises. I empathize with the girl, and suffered with her as one with her taking her place as mine. Wept day and night fasted and prostrated in His presence till victory gained in His name.
Thereby later in the ministry along with my husband , I could use the same prayer and word of God to deliver evil possessed people. God helps us to go through certain phases of life and teaches us so that in future we will be used as His tools in His Kingdom. Having sympathy and going to help others out of our way sometimes, bring us face to face with the devil. But when we wear the armour of God nothing can harm us.
Most people in the church aren’t trained medical and mental health professionals, so they are unsure how to help the mentally ill. What I learned in this experience such mentally ill people can be helped only by love and compassion for the listing soul and knowing the power of Christ, in His name and in His blood.
Some of the things God directs and permits in our lives feel like crushing blows. They fracture us and shatter our dreams and determination, persistence, and perseverance. But they are the tests and training that make us people of God. I easily shunned taking this responsibility of praying for them, but I could not, the Love of Christ forced me to go with them and pray for them. but in the eyes of self righteous people we became culprits, shameless, useless, and naked.
I felt like I was in an impossible situation which is strange and unique in its nature. But later I came to know itI’s not unique , it is the tactic of the Evil one, to bring shame and confusion, in our lives. But I started to meditate on the word of God, I questioned myself , why we were in that situation, why I was in it, I knew I was in it not because I chose to be in , I chose to help a soul, I was in a series of incredible circumstances that coincidentally fell together and caught me by surprise. But He is never surprised!!
As a result of me being associated with this evil possessed one closely, the nominal christians looked down at me, brought bad name to me, rumours spread easily. I was crushed spiritually, but the Lord was by my side and delivered me from the mouth of the Lion. They intended to bring evil upon me, but the Lord was by my side and turned up everything for His glory.
“But the Lord Stood at my side and gave me strength, delivered fme from the mouth of the lion” 2 Tim 4:17
“I am in the midst of lions, I am forced…dwell among ravenous easts-men whose teeth are spears and arrows…tongues are sharp swords. I am surrounded by fierce lions who Ps 57:4
One thing was clear to me, I am here on purpose to be tested with the impossible. God Himself knew what he intended to do ; there is no knee-jerk after thought with the Divine. He is worlds ahead of me; His perspective is beyond my lifetime. He has ‘the long view’ of my existence. I stood in that little pinpoint of time, but My God has His arms around me and all round me. He knew exactly what he intended to do. He wanted to do His very best work when I was at the absolute end of my hope. but He is my friend, I can cast off my burden on Him and I resolved to fast and pray till He answers me and redeems me, because He knew what was happening, and how I was duped and trapped by the devil and its agents on this earth. because after the victory I felt dizzy, utterly helpless, confused and heartbroken by the way we were treated, manipulated, and exploited. At this point I am determined to pray, fast and pray till my mind is clear, and get back my FAITH.
Some of the great promises I got were,
Micah 7:7-12 “But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Saviour, Do not gloat over me, my enemy though I have fallen, I will raise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light. Because I have sinned against him I will bear the Lord’s watch, until he pleads my case and establishes my right. He will bring me out into the light, I will see his righteousness. Then my enemy will see it and will be covered with shame.
I fasted for number months, I lived as if I wore a sack cloth, day and night I pour my heart and pleaded for His mercy, not only God restored the joy in Him again but later the verses underneath that passage were fulfilled in my life verse11 —“The day for building your walls will come, the day for extending your boundaries, In that day people will come to you from Assyria and the cities of Egypt, even from Egypt to the Euphrates and from sea to sea and from mountain to mountain “
Each of these promises were fulfilled literally. God rewarded my prayers in sackcloth, and my spirit in dust.
Amos 9: 11:-” In those days I will restore David’s fallen tent. I will repair its broken places, restore its ruins and build it as it used to be”—- Yes He did it, in a miraculous way.
The promise beneath was fulfilled literally in building the Prayer house in Eluru, and Grace villa for our dwelling. Both were broken desolate places and ruined when we occupied them. God restored both places and build them and bright glory to His name.
Amos 9: 14 “….they will build ruined cities and live in them They will plant vineyards …..I will plant them) in their own land, never again to be uprooted from the land I have given them”
Build ruined cities and live in them? They will plant a vineyard ?I will plant them Never again to be uprooted from the land I have given them? Literally fulfilled in 1994, and 1997. These promises I got in 1978, it means I had waited for those promises to be fulfilled approximately for 2 decades of time.
Ehez 36:36:–“….People around you will know that I the Lord have replanted what was desolate. I, The Lord, have spoken and I will do it.”
People around me came to know that I the Lord had replanted what was desolate. How strongly the Lord assured that He the Lord had spoken and He would do it!!!
Zephaniah 3:20 I will give you honour and praise among all the peoples of the earth when I restore your fortunes before your very eyes–says the Lord”
He had given honour and praise among all the people of the earth USA, Australia, through my books and speeches.
Joel 2:23 The Lord says; ” I will give you back what you lost to the swarming locusts, the hopping locusts, the stripping locusts, and the cutting locusts. It was I who sent this great destroying army against you.
What a wonderful God He has given me back what I lost to the swarming locusts, the hopping locusts, the stripping locust, and cutting locusts.
Oh nothing happened in the year 1978 were out of His plan; He brought those tribulations against me, why ? Oh why? Because He waited for me to plead Him to gain these great promises !! He tested me on how I wait upon Him for restoration. He looked down at me to see how I restored my strength in Him. Is there anything in the life of His child that is happening without His permission? He brought all those things , suffering to give a chance to me to seek His feet afresh and claim the promises from Him by giving an opportunity to me to rejoice in Him while He brought all those promises fulfilled. What a great God we have.
The Lord is faithful to His word, he built my life and gave me ministry exactly after 7 years of this promise. God helped me to toil in His vineyard, building the life of people to come to the Lord, and give them hope to live for.
Later I had gone through many more trials in my life. Yes I have been comforted by Him because I cried to the Lord in my troubles. He is faithful and answers us, and uses the very useless of us, in the way He likes to use us. God is God, He who hath said, I am I am , is with us, The Emmanuel is with us. The Saviour is with us. That is enough in this life.
Here I want to tell you whichever language you read your Bible, He is God of that Bible, His is the voice of the Bible , He would know that He is talking to you. Once one of the English professors mocked me seeing the Bible on my table.” Your Telugu translation of the Bible is full of mistakes. and laughed. There were 18 lecturers in that hall, where I was seated in front of my table and the Holy Bible was on it along with my other books to be corrected etc. I said “Sir, you may be too intelligent to find mistakes in the Holy Bible Telugu translation, but remember one thing, ( Lifting up the Bible with my hand up) This Bible changed my life. I was a liar but The author of this Bible is Truth, This changed my life, He delivered me from lies. . You must know this.” there was no answer or sound in that room.
There is power in the word of God, power in His name, Power in His blood. Just by claiming that power we can claim the victory over the forces of the darkness. We should remember that we are fighting with powers of darkness not with the flesh and blood. Ministry in His vineyard means fighting with powers of darkness.
Once His disciples could not cast away the devil from a boy. When Jesus threw away the devil from the boy the disciples asked Him why they could not have the victory over the evil spirit . Then He answered such kind of evil spirits come forth by nothing , but by prayer and fasting” Mark 9:29
“ O faithless generation, how long shall I be with You? How long shall I Suffer you? Mark 9:19